So hi. The season has been a doozy, and I just now feel like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s been fantastic, for sure – some of my best work ever – but so challenging with toddlers, feeling the constant pull and need, and I don’t mean that in a bad way. I WANT to spend every waking moment with them (and all my sleeping moments, too).
I’ve had a hard time returning to this blog after they were born, for several reasons.
One, the Edith Meyer Wedding Cakes Facebook page has been a very quick and easy place to post cake pictures, keeping it very professional and business-y, and so the Cake Tuesday posts became obsolete – I don’t like posting stuff in multiple places just for the sake of exposure. Ugh. For years this blog was a glimpse into my personal life, and that has become something I’m not as interested in sharing with the public any more. (If you’re my friend on Facebook, however, you’ll know I’m HUGE at over-sharing there!)
More importantly, and I’m finally ready to talk about this a little, or at least explain my absence here, the birth of our boys was a long-planned, and ultimately very difficult thing. After years of heartaches and loss and subsequently sitting on the fence regarding our future as parents or as a child-free couple, we jumped off the fence in 2012 and took a couple of our frozen embryos and approached a surrogate agency about “borrowing an oven” (in baking terms).
The agency ended up being awful and the surrogate was a disaster, but at the end of the day we got our beautiful, perfect, healthy boys (albeit six weeks early and in the NICU for one very stressful month). I wouldn’t wish our experience on anyone, but it sounds petty to complain when we GOT OUR CHILDREN, something so many people wish for and haven’t been able to do.
And also, knowing that she knows who I am and what I do, I haven’t wanted her to have one bit of information about my children, when she took countless unnecessary risks and was so cavalier about their existence.
So the blog has stagnated, and the boys have grown, and the cakes have continued, and life does go on, faster than ever with two little whirlwinds in the mix.
I guess I’m trying to figure out what to write about (I really do enjoy writing) that doesn’t involve my children and doesn’t duplicate my cake posts on Facebook (which don’t actually include much information, just pretty pictures). If you’ve got any ideas, let me know, and I’ll see what I can come up with as I slide into winter and things slow down just a bit.
In the meantime, thanks for checking in and hope you’re well and wonderful.